Outta my sleepyyy mind...

So much we know, but sometimes we fail to understand.

So much we feel, but sometimes we fail to express.

So much we see, but sometimes we fail to believe.

So much we love, but sometimes we fail to trust.

So much we have, but sometimes we fail to acknowledge.

Eye Catching

Catch of the day.....

Eyes happened to catch a glimpse of something with these words.

"One good thing about music - when it hits you, you feel no pain."

Expectation....

From where you could see it coming, is where it doesn't.

And from where you think it wouldn't, is where it does!

There is always something more to life.

Seek and you shall find. Ask and you shall receive. Knock and the doors shall open.

UPDATE- The comments to this post make me write this. The above words have been written with the positives in mind. Kindly take it in the right sense!!! Besides, to all those who  havent found after seeking, haven't received after asking and to those whom doors still seemed locked there is HOPE, so stay put and then you might see that "something more"!!!!

Done Done Done!

So the most awaited time arrives, exams done, what a relief!!! About how did they go, lets leave that to be a mystery since I dunno for myself. Only the marks shall tell which i ain't that excited about!

You just have all the time in the world now to do chill things. Be it watching random stuff or changing how your blog looks, as you can see!! I am still playing around with the looks of it. And honestly, time just flies. You don't realise how time just goes by, which is the beauty of it. Have some killer movies to watch, episodes to catch up on. Friends to catch up with. House to be cleant for Christmas. A few books to read, mind it, interesting ones and not those 800 page texts which simply dont end. More than anything, its just time to relax and ease out.

Got a heavy dump of snow throughout the night. Didn't realise it was so bad until i opened my door. Roads messed but its a good feel to see everything so cozy and white. Makes me just want to stay home and watch movies.

Set of awards coming up soon!!!

Till then, enjoy!

Peace!

Of Life & Cars

Life's like an expressway or freeway whatever you call it. People are like cars. People drive in when they feel like. Use it when they need to. And boom...outside... before you even peep outside your car window. By the time you want to get a glimpse of it from your honda or trying to decide what make it is, its gone!!! You wish you moved faster or else you hadn't seen it in the first place but too bad its already got you distracted.You so want to figure out what exactly it was but guess what its far away, unreachable.

I bet you'll see many others while on board. But what about that one? That only who stole your sight away? Lost it i guess. It has overtaken you.

Ain't life like that? You lose one but there is hope u'll gain another. They say, umeed pe toh duniya kaayam hai! You gotta keep going at the same pace to in order to avoid a mess on the freeway and let the road moving swift. Guess what, chances are this time u'll see something more amazing, may be a BMW..!!! Take the chance and move on...!! How i wish of people and of cars...!!!

Random crap

After a while, its the head that speaks out, not the heart. You want your heart to speak and pour out what it feels, but there is something stopping it, something that tells you- don't! And then you wonder,whats wrong now? whats this feeling? whats this thing thats stopping you??

One week down

With first week of classes done, it doesn't feel any better. Although all the first day professor talks takes you close to cloud nine, its brings with it test dates which ain't that great. The fact is I got to pull up another 8 months before I get what I want....yes, some vacation!!!! Might sound crazy but i really require it. Its been crazy busy, tiring and hectic and I am just a week down my countdown. Before you can even complete your sleep on the weekend its time to welcome another Monday. Plus now when your not looking forward to it, it comes by pretty fast.

Of thoughts on my mind here are a few...

- Do what is right, not what you want to.

- Don't watch " a walk to remember", at least not at this time of the year, makes you lose focus and gets you all thinking loser things.

- The church priest said, Sometimes what destroys can make certain things heal.

- You can be stronger than you thing, provided you want it.

- First years talk too much and most of it comes out of being scared and excited.

- Got a chance to watch "wednesday'. That was something really well done in a long time.

Peace!!!!

The worst it can get is this--

People you know and with whom you once shared so much with simply ignore you. You don't know the reason and you surely cannot find out, guess why? Because they just don't reply or talk. You see them, they see you but they just pass by. Just hurts to see this happen but it happens and you gotta witness it, blahhhh thats life!!!

One more outta randomness

I want to write, pour out my heart, whats on my mind, but not finding the right words. Its just the feelings sometime, that does all the expressing. Happens with everyone right?? You have so many things happening that you dunno where to begin from. Just all messie messie, so many hidden expressions, so many assumptions. Trying to avoid, nobody willing to speak, all thats left is .........

I think I am crazy right now, this post might sound wierd, nothing intentional , just some wacky thoughts kicking in.

Have been all over the place for the past few days. I learned to think( thanks to that one person who got me hooked to seeing life that way), and for sure after that life has changed. But you know what, its painful. Real hard to see that person go. I picture myself how I was 3 years ago, just a carefree being who didn't think, just lived. Said to a friend today, i want to see myself that way. It will take time, but it will happen, thats my faith.

Life's creepy sometimes. Was stunned at church today, when Father J asked me, "Are you Ok"??. I got a few stares, dunno what the others felt about that comment to me. Thought to myself, what the hell, what instincts mann!!!

The sunday has been relaxing so far, thankful for certain things, for some, not. Get out of my way is all i plead for. Its like your walking on a road when all of a sudden you see something, something distracting at that moment. Anyways, this is wierd.

These lyrics on my mind- “Jeene ke liye socha hi nahi....dard sambhaalne honge".


PS-Watched some movies today, Kismat Konnection being one of them , aww it sucked, I slept half way through. Too bad, I should have listened.

Phewww....

Just for my records.

What a day it has been -Started off crap, cooled midway, blazzed at the end....phewww...thats the way its always been,and guess what,i like extremes, love it this way.
Had a not so good conversation with my team lead,12 am, was pissed coz he moved my space...which i didn't approve of..but then he realised there was something wrong...came spoke to me..and i was like...fine..i m cool..and then on..it was indeed cool, things went well.

The moment you begin to accept things as they are, be happy with what you have and stay content....thats when things are all under control. But the question is....are we always happy with what we have??? Nahh...we want more!!! More space, more fun, more marks, more love. AHh...have ya thought of a way to handle it? i am still searching!

Then there are these few people, whose impact of like a line or two means the world....hell ya, it does!!! Ever thought of how a child feels when he sees the phoogawala(balloon seller, in mumbai ki small streets...kids go crazyy).Bad analogy, but thats all i can think think of rt now. Today ive heard from him(friend, guru, competitor, inspiration...all the good things you cud think of, one who teases you to life), and hes doing well, that means a ton, I am glad.

Ok so i was about to publish post but guess what, something else happens, ohh good lord, the worst i could imagine, that past was revived..those memories...how they hurt each time, content supressed for ease.

Aww too much dramatics here, miss ya gujju:PP(loved the convo i had with you gurl, gets me back on track, each time).

For now-Hold on, be strong.

Day craze

Was sleeping after a night shift but i suddenly woke up. Guess What?
To my witty neighbor blasting techno beats music in his drive way which went on for a good 2 hours. Like people usually do that in the nite at 12 am here...but its 3 in the afternoon...dude,get a life!! For Gods sake...dude couldn't you blast it somewhere else...and publicize your crappy car and the music somewhere else. For the first few minutes, i thought it was the person in my dream playing music, but then, when it didn't seem to stop...i was like wth!!! It was so damn loud that even my room windows refused to help me sleep. Changed rooms, that didn't help either! Can still feel the hemispheres in my head rotating.

So finally i decided to let the dude do he wants, while i did some blogging=)

Sundaie

Just back from church, felt good that i made it on time after a long time. The prayer group rocked it today, was totally awesome=).

Its got so gloomy outside, looks like its gonna pour like hell, need it need it.

Sunday, one of the slowest days of the week for me, just doesn;t pass fast.

Today :-

- I've realized, some inspiration is what i always need.

-Father Joyson said, don't fear anyone or any thing except God(in a respectful way)

- I've to write to sis mama, she'll be crossing 81 this year!!!

- I'm addicted to these songs from JAL and got my sis addicted to them too.

- Heard these songs from 'UGLY AUR PAGLI'....they are amongst the crazier ones ive heard this year.

- Hope mamu gets alright jaldi jaldi.

-And finally, crap, 4 days left for my exam, pata nahi kitney teer marney wali hun:DDD

Happenings

Well yesterday and today, have just been those laid back days, where literally i just layed back, just did nothing, except talking to people and playing pool( i am improving), which i can't stop doing, its just become like one of those daily routines, atleast till university begins=)

Tried talking straight to my friend,the most atrangi guy from my group, and he was like, avoid formal talks with me coz we are so used to being rude, shrude, insane, crazy, calling each other so much stuff(abusive and just not the nice words u see!!)...that the normal vocab sounds like some alien calling out to me. Well, it was a good talk today, after a while, he telling me the missy missy story and was just like....wat the hell....are u serious!!! But truly, hes one of those whom i miss dearly these days..miss the competition...miss him....its just those unsaid things i guess.

My music learning......ohh.....i want to get started soon on that, after all the inspiring stories from today.

Cars.....can't share that love with anyone....no offence!!!

Hmm....what else,ohh yeah....how can i forget this, after searching so hard, like for 2 weeks, i finally found my blog background,happy endingssss :PP just love this one...aint it nice??? ohh well hope it stays on long before i give into some other layout, but till then, stay cool, head on shoulders, me moving on=)

Baby can u feel the magic!

Couldn't think of an apt title today.....today has been such a gr8 day in terms of friends and their support, but a bad one in terms of gaming:((...lost all my pool games to that dodo....can;t believe it, my eyes refused to see, but who cares, i'll still win tomorrow(thats my heart speaking :PP)!!!

Baby(thts my pet name for her), told me her story today and I must say it made my day, that gurl and me, have so much different but still somewhere we still think of each other, still those memories make me smile and her too and thats what matters. Life, I just learnt, moves on, but such memories of childhood, i hope they never leave me because when the world backs out on me they support me and thats all i want, some things work better unsaid and this is one of it!!!

I think my carefree nature would sometime make me regret, par nahi yaar, thats the way to go and move!! Those few people in my life, as long they stay, thats it, wouldn't care or bother much!

Ahh moving on about what I had initially planned to blog about, highways!!!!!!!!
I've had this extreme fascination for roads and highways from the very beginning and today i wish to give them justice in my life by saying how much i love speed, travelling and moving on highways, just gives me some pleasure, ahh....sounds weird but what to do, thats me, totally weird, random and a travel freak!!!

PS-Loved that highway all the way to Markham and back, where i gave directions even though it was my first time, was about to crash but we still saved ourselves, was just fun all the way!!!

PS-Canadian idol just sucks, thought the guys on Indian Idol were way better,hats off to them!

Those few

Couldn't ask for more.....those 2 people just made my day....i can't express how much they mean...=)

Glad things are okie with gujju, work went fairly well,i didn;t get soaked in the rain, glad i got my buses on time, and finally glad to read that bombay update.....gosh!

But yeah, life will be back to square one from today, back to the very first place from where is started few days ago.

Random: Song thats on my mind, playing at the back

Hume aur jeene ki chahat na hoti, agar tum na hotey!!

Today has just begun, hoping to have a gud day ahead, till then cheers!!!

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AHh......i have not slept all nite.....its 11 in the morning....still can't sleep...trying hard but just cant, just that one call....m just wide awake now...sitting on my bed..thinking about random things.
Hope you are fine, thats all i hope.

Called R aunty....just wanted to hear her.....has just been so long.....haven't had a long talk with her....feels well now, m glad....omg....shes just like after me...i liked the way she turned my words from faithful to loving=)

Again i keep thinking.....ahhh.....god...hope your fine, all i know is everything's gonna be alright.