I want to write, pour out my heart, whats on my mind, but not finding the right words. Its just the feelings sometime, that does all the expressing. Happens with everyone right?? You have so many things happening that you dunno where to begin from. Just all messie messie, so many hidden expressions, so many assumptions. Trying to avoid, nobody willing to speak, all thats left is .........
I think I am crazy right now, this post might sound wierd, nothing intentional , just some wacky thoughts kicking in.
Have been all over the place for the past few days. I learned to think( thanks to that one person who got me hooked to seeing life that way), and for sure after that life has changed. But you know what, its painful. Real hard to see that person go. I picture myself how I was 3 years ago, just a carefree being who didn't think, just lived. Said to a friend today, i want to see myself that way. It will take time, but it will happen, thats my faith.
Life's creepy sometimes. Was stunned at church today, when Father J asked me, "Are you Ok"??. I got a few stares, dunno what the others felt about that comment to me. Thought to myself, what the hell, what instincts mann!!!
The sunday has been relaxing so far, thankful for certain things, for some, not. Get out of my way is all i plead for. Its like your walking on a road when all of a sudden you see something, something distracting at that moment. Anyways, this is wierd.
These lyrics on my mind- “Jeene ke liye socha hi nahi....dard sambhaalne honge".
PS-Watched some movies today, Kismat Konnection being one of them , aww it sucked, I slept half way through. Too bad, I should have listened.